Yifang

rain

2012-01-21T17:14:00.003+08:00

its raining
suddenly i miss you.

i miss you saying you wish i was by your side
i miss you saying you wish you could fall asleep by my side
i miss watching you eat your ba kwah
i miss watching anime with you
i miss getting tickled by you
i miss you jumping out of nowhere and scare the hell out of me.
:)

i hope so

2011-12-25T12:31:00.003+08:00

If we could
...
Both love each other

rock the ship

2011-12-07T01:16:00.003+08:00

recently you've been listless, sometimes making me feel extra
as though i am a convenient company to have.
you always seem so distracted, sometimes its so hard to capture your attention
like your mind is always somewhere else :(

i just want our time together to be more fufilling, more chatter, more laughter.
deeper moments that i can feel that we are actually together because we have that little love for
each other. thats all. not game playing, not looking at games, not playing guitar on your own.
not our minds wandering to elsewhere.

wait

2011-11-09T19:39:00.004+08:00

you'll never know what it's like to wait
the grinding moments when every single seconds pass like 1hr
always hanging by a thread
waiting for a call
waiting for sms
waiting for you
stretching my patience so thin
that it was barely there anymore
i am always pushing
pushing my own boundries to give you more room more leeway
the feeling of disappointment
when you didn't respond
when you took such a long time

the feeling of disappointment at myself when i give in
give in to wait for awhile more
give in to give you more space more time

and finally get more slumped
when after waiting for the whole day to be with you
you say you are not going to stay for long

someday time is going to run out for me
i can't wait forever you know

stump

2011-10-08T23:53:00.003+08:00

it felt like my heart died a little.
seems like its the worst idea to be frank
to tear down my wall and tell her straight.
she saw the opening and stab it
with her thoughtless words,
maybe i should reflect a little why my concerns were left to thin air?
why my love and care were being disregarded and treated like a worthless piece of shit.
she merely snicker and laugh at my words with disdain.

what happened?
why why did it happen twice.
first time i could understand because of that singular factor.
but what about the second one?
i treaded on water, be careful with my words
care and concern for her,
had she forgotten? how close we once were?
that i deemed her as the person i love the most in the whole of my life
how could she forgot the times we had, i want to be close to her, i still want to be.
i am too tired to try

god/whoever/anyone,
if you see this please give me the strenght to go on
the strenght to continue to have a beating heart to give my love to her.
the strenght to stand up to continue love her
even after being repeatedly wounded by her

family
i have no choice
i can't choose
i can't help it but to love you
unconditionally

commitment issues? maybe

2011-10-06T23:49:00.007+08:00

servitude

slave to my commitments
i am no longer the master of my own time
it is always taken away and dictated by commitments

"complusory meeting!"
"hey its time to wash the toilets"
"hello girls we are having training..."
"lets meet up for project work"

orders that i can't defy

Yes, as part of the community, yes we are socially obliged to contribute.
the overlapse of many communities commitments is crushing me.
i will gladly serve a community that i am happy with,
i willingly spend time on doing things that i love.

i just want to have more control of my time.
hate to be told that i need to do some thing at a certain time

juggling

2011-10-06T01:50:00.002+08:00

i adore my friends
i have too much friends i adore?
or i just have a overwhelmingly helpful/ overwhelmingly eager to do things that would please others?
i have no more time to spare

Yes i shall have to keep that in my mind
i couldn't do everything i want
i cannot go around promising things that would make my busy life even busier
TIME MANAGEMENT!
i am spending a massive load of time on things that don't matter.
no stop it!

misunderstood

2011-10-03T15:13:00.002+08:00

grossly so.

love is blind.
she thinks so?
i think she is blinded towards my love

what's right? what's wrong?
i headed his advice and do what's right
and left my mended heart in broken shards.

i want to love her, the right way.
but its so taxing so tiring so heartbreaking.
because she can't see, she can't feel my love.
she can't see that above all i love her most.
that i don't give a dam about anything else but her.
my disappointment and bitterness have no one to share with

i bare myself, my love, my disappointment for her.
she trampled it with her indolescence.
i tell her that i care. she muffled her heart and said i don't
how can i unveil the bias-ness that's blinding her
and bring my love to light?

do what's right even if it brings about a whole world of unhappiness
or do what's wrong and smooth things out?

pitfall

2011-09-16T13:35:00.003+08:00

i am such a loser!
so easily swayed and changed my mind
just give me something nice, treat me better, i will forget and forgive
that's why i walled up myself so much :(

----
disappointed
if i don't have expectations in the first place
i wouldn't feel the ache.

should i be more vocal abt my displeasure?
and it will totally defeats the idea of initiative

i am cheered by concerned caring friends, appreciative ones.
gives me the satisfaction and joy to be nice to them, spend time with them
but it deepens the stark contrast and just make the disappointment even more unbearable.

i can only do so much, i am tired too.

man! i wish this isjust all part of the mood swings!

woo hoo

2011-09-16T02:00:00.001+08:00

its like a organic reaction.. takes time

Timeless

2011-09-14T16:52:00.007+08:00

no time no time no time
i am 4 lectures behind!

---

guilty pangs sets in and brings me into a shock
negligence have no excuses this time round
i am scared
suddenly the constants in my life are about to change
its filled with enough changing variables
i need to be anchored down
will we just float away and wander off in the dark abyss of faces in the crowd?

sudden downpour
its so not me, well kept in check emotions just exploded
strewn all over the place.
but still why the sudden outburst?

uncomfortable.
a peak into my indomitable wall
plain unsettling

---
appreciation
i give too little or give it too much
or no one knows i am giving it?

reciprocation
i received too little or too much.. (honestly i think there is a freaking big rm for more)
or i don't know i am being reciprocated?!

relationships will only be timeless if we make time for it.

Miss us, not the plane

2011-09-10T01:29:00.003+08:00

We all stayed calm and level-headed this time.
no emotional teary send offs, no puffy eyes and running nose.
have we gotten used to her going off from us? No.

maybe its because we are so confident that our friendship will stay as strong
when she's back. we know that nothing would have change, it would be
just like old times. we know that we wouldn't miss her, because deep down she will
be always with us, it would be as if she've never left.

---

i am just happy that you are there to share this moment with me, to send off an impt friend, to see what i see, to know how i've felt.
To see that you are willing to be part of it, makes makes the
chasm between us more possible to overcome.

cheated

2011-09-07T13:57:00.003+08:00

who told me uni was much more easier than jc
no way
the overwhelming commitments and hmwk is killing me?

i am tired
i have so much to hold on to.
my indecisiveness kicked in once more, i can't decide which one to let go
in the end i might find myself drowning in this dark whirlpool

guilty
i don't even have the time for the important people in my life
i don't have energy left to show that i care
to shower my concerns, my affections.
i feel that i've neglected them.
i really miss my sisters and friends that i hold dear to

am i such a let down ?

FOC!

2011-07-17T05:45:00.004+08:00

Can't sleep!!
cause i am overly excited abt the camp!
for the whole week i had been ranting abt the FOC to practically everyone
who came within my radius :)
i fret over what gift to bring for my SP and ransack my whole house to find a suitable
bag that could fit the 10 sets of clothes that i would bring (hey its in the packing list! i am not being
a bimbo who needs to change her clothes ever hour)

but with so much hope, i scared i would be disappointed :(
HAHA still i look forward to the camp alot!
its like one of the most exciting thats gonna happen to me in many many months WHEE!

erm..

2011-07-12T19:59:00.002+08:00

Is there something you didn't tell me?
Don't show me that guilty face, just lie through your teeth and say no.

Smile because you are worth it

2011-07-05T02:06:00.004+08:00

defination of :)
the stretching of your facial muscles that transform your mouth into a U shape.

reasons for smiling

I feel happy
i feel that it might somehow uplift my mood and make me happy
i want to make you think i am happy but actually i am not
i think i look better when i smile
i want to act friendly
i want to reduce hostility
i am awkward
YOU are awkward
i am dam nervous
YOU are dam nervous
i want you to smile back at me
i need your help... badly
i am actually mocking at you

my good pals are really the ones who see me sulk with a black face.
my besties are the ones who can see my black face even when my smile is so wide that it hurts

:)
its the twinkle in your eyes, that ppl know you are happy even though you are perpetually sulking.

survivor

2011-07-04T11:03:00.003+08:00

yesterday started off badly :(
i woke up from my 3 hrs slp and tried my best not to forget anything, i dash off in my slippers and walk at my fastest pace, then go up to the mrt and wait impatiently for the stupid train to come. after like forever the train is reaching in 2 mins time and i scan around and saw ppl in their red shirts and carrying a BIB!!

i jolt from my sleepy stupor and frantically search my bag for confirmation :( yeah i ran back in my slippers. and grab my bib. i change back to running shoes instead of slippers because running/walking fast in slippers is a torture. when i finally reach the gantry, i realised, MY EZLINK CARD IS LOST ! again! second time :( i think it drop out of my jacket pocket when i ran.. i had to buy a new one.
bad luck? No
bad brain? Yes

i know to many 5km is chicken feet, but to me its the most enormus smelly foot in the world.
the only thing that spur me to join this run is a moment of folly plus the feel-gd-factor.
my bistered bleeding leg hurts like crazy when i bath, my muscles were so saturated with acid, that i thought it might corrode. but it was a rewarding experience though, the after-you-run part. the sun is blistering hot, the MC is funny, water never taste better, taking photos with the stlit walking ppl and SITTNG DOWN!

i must be feeling ultra guilty abt my ezlink card, because after 5 km we met up with HS at dhoby ghaut. and we walk back to funan to buy screen protector. we sat at Mac to rest my tired legs but refuse to order anything because i watch this the day before

everyone should watch this video!!

and guess what.. i saw a angmoh guy, looking awesome with his muscles and white teeth ordered 2 burgers and a big fries with evian water, and sat infront of us. and the burgers isn't your small punny looking filet o fish. they are hearty size mcspicy and cheese burger D: and he just chomp down everything like its his regular meal. ok i can see where he get his muscles from..

ok i have nothing more interesting to blog abt because i went home and slept throughout.
tata~

Party like its 2012

2011-06-09T15:48:00.004+08:00

for all we know we might not get tomorrow.

Mixed feelings
one side of me is full of regrets for the relapsed yesterday night
i was acting like a drunk and had hands all over my waist
which i insist that it was qian hui and yilin's

another side was amazed at how awesome it is to have fun with them
like really so high like up up in the sky!
and how i manage to turned into someone else entirely/ok not entirely la
but ny usual self is 90% gone

i feel like crap now with an injured knee D:
i checked my past blogpost, i hurt this stupid knee of mine in 2006
5 yrs had passed, this stupid knee still haunts me :(
i need lots of hot tea and hot soup to cure my mushy brains
and a lot more alcohol to forget what i had done yesterday night!

Mutual Friends

2011-06-07T13:45:00.004+08:00

2 close friends to you but they don't know each other personally,
they are not even on first name basis,
yet they know too much nitty details about each other for them to be strangers.
mind blowing right!
its like professor X, we could read into the lives of another!
the more freaky thing is it happened after watching X-Men
Crazy, it was like movie coming true in real life, HA!
well it just means that we are really close friends of her and she talks alot about us! :D

X-men First class is like a missed episode of the whole long series of X-men
through out the whole movie i am trying to make links to the other series of X-men movies/cartoons i've watched, which i forgot a large chunk. tsk, they should make the movies chronologically la, but then again this may be an evil plot to make us buy the X-men DVD and rewatch everything again.

life have never been more meaningless for me, i can't wait for my uni to start.
i feel like moving in to my hostel immediately!
everyday i am going online, getting hooked on tetris wasting my life away :(

CRAP HOLEY CRAP!!!

2011-05-04T02:11:00.002+08:00

NSP say they want to reduce TAX, they want to reduce Cost of Living. they say they want to reduce the Hospital bill and that sky rocketing ERP. BUT ooopps they forgot to tell us what policies they intent to implement to achieve it(maybe there's none that's why) and how the fucking hell you are going to fund the reduction in healthcare cost when you are going to reduce tax. and what you are gonna do when the CBD area jam up like a clogged congested fat artery in that black congested heart because the ERP gantry get to rest for a day. TELL ME WHY IS IT NSP COMING TO CONTEST!! .

i rarely say that but WTF seriously what have nicole seah done to represent us to appologise on MM Lee comment. she didn't even do a single bit to serve our community.

Yes what MM Lee said might have warrent an apology but sister it shouldn't come from you because you small fry have done nothing for singapore to be the one apologising, get someone with more weight to say it. By the way, she say she apologised on behalf of all chinese in Singapore? no way! did MM Lee was just expressing his own opinions he don't even dare to say that his view represent the whole of the chinese community.

and No! no chinese had express that they thought of our fellow malays friends that way. so don't hide behind the "whole chinese community" thing and play around with the fake sensitivity of yours. And try to make our malay voters feel touched about it. You are just playing political games. You can say you don't think that way but you can't say that we think of it that way!

if you got the guts, say that you appologise on behalf of MM Lee! because afterall he was the one who made that comment right?! stop being so obnoxious, thinking that you could represent everyone, because me, for sure don't want to be represented by you

Politics ah

2011-04-28T01:12:00.004+08:00

Maybe i had been brain washed, maybe i had been influenced by the propaganda textbks
but i am seriously annoyed by some of the people who are anti-PAP
some of them are with hopes for changes, looking for a better future for singapore, That's awesome because it shows enthusiasm with our country's progress and the maturation of the political scene, but some of them are just plain rebelious people who seeks pleasure in defying the system.
no doubt this is the result of the tightly controlled, very law abiding society.

but really is voting for the opposition the best choice?
what i meant is, is voting for opposition JUST TO OVERTHROW PAP rule really what we should be doing?
and do opposition have the ability to form a Good Government, one that can give us significant foothold globally ensure we have profits instead of deficit, housing for all.. esp housing that can be affordable to us AND at the same time grow in value to help us fight inflation.
and HEALTHCARE that doesn't crumble our annual budget? LIKE ahem .. some wealfare states in the West. and have the foresight to see how the WORLD ECONOMY is driving towards, what are the key driver industry of the Singapore Economy. Are they really able to come out with sound policies?? making us socially harmonious, well fed, healthy, educated ppl of the future.

come on with these at stake, i will definitely vote for PAP
i think the opposition parties have not matured enough to take over yet.
Maybe some of the singapore population is undergoing the teenager stage
back in the fifties, when we are still a baby nation,
all that we are concern is warm bellies, roof over our heads.
now we want all the kaching and bling bling. we want more freedom, we want less control
we want to party we dislike parental control. we just wanna say NO! to everything just because we can.

For example,
the silly competition on face book about Nicole seah overtaking George Yeo in number of fans they have on their pages. some even try to garner votes for her by highlighting this fact and try to make a common goal for people to over take LKY's no of fan on his page.
Nicole have more fans.. so?
did people go and think why she is really that popular?
or some just went with the crowd and click on the like button so they get to see some saga in the otherwise normal scene. This is almost the reason why people like to gossip why people like to read trashy tabloids, because of self-gratification. humans like to see people getting into fights, like to see arguments like to read about scandal, they like to 看好戏. they want to see how will the PAP react when they find that they are not as popular. Hey this is not like showbiz where the more fans you get the better you are. Yeah no doubt popularity counts
but is Nicole's popularity well deserved? she was deemed as the voice for the new generation.
but seriously how much she know about us, how much had she been through to represent singapore, HELLO i am talking about the WHOLE OF SINGAPORE not Singapore YOUTHS HOR!! people who are in their fifites, who have seen and heard and maybe more educated then she is. can she handle it?? can she placate our uncertainties about her and convince us that she along with her party can lead singapore to a better brighter future. maybe she is just the celebrity politician?

not trying to be LKY no.1 fan
but as compared to him, ain't his fame, his reputation more well earned?
his sound policies, his efforts, his foresight for singapore are recognised by all.
Yes i agree his time for politics had passed, he should sit back and relax. but we should
still acknowledge the fact that he had build up strong very experience very capable team of people to lead us.

Voting for Nicole is like forgoing the very experience heart surgeon and choosing a his new, very green and sophomoric apprentice to operate on this blacken fat and congested heart.

fly like a G6

2011-04-05T01:07:00.005+08:00

korea

new experience new sights
the best thing over in korea should be skiing and shopping in faceshop
if only i had more money and bigger luggage :(

the second best thing is myeongdong
i had that 1 hr all by myself to roam around in foreign land
a map in my hand a camera in another
just looking around walking about
finding my way through the crowded streets to cathedral of myeongdong
and suprise myself with unexpected finds like authentic sg brands
come on ba kwa and breadtalk in korea!

the whole hour is like an adventure to me,
imagining myself as a backpack traveler.
just poking around trying different food and ask stupid qns :D

this trip only manage to sate my desire to go overseas for 5days.
now i had this renew drive to go again! a stronger one! anyone game for it?

What a pity

2011-03-12T01:58:00.002+08:00

No one would be a greater fool than i am
i threw in thousands of dollars into tuition
trying hard in vain to improve my grades and firmly believed that i could
attain some decent grades just by going tuition

implacent idiot
i forgot that gd grades comes with massive colossal efforts
No i choose to procrastinate the many piercing failures from past exams
and continued to be the lazy fool.
so short sighted and succumbed to the short-lived easy life
now i can only drool at other ppl good grades
and wallow in self disgust
i always lost myself in the lala imagination of getting better results
and how good it will feel to have the dilemma of choosing business
or chem engine.. or some other awesome courses.
i could have done it. i know it in my bones its well within my capability
but What a pity..

i know i am a lucky ass.
i manage to get grades that could land me into uni
but i am in such a undesirable position
the only course i could get into is crap course that i have zero interest in
will i be able to endure the 4 yrs?
can i pass my engine modules without a solid physics background??

i manage to get in uni but so?
graduating from uni is now the bigger problem
i am really afraid i will not be able to graduate from there afterall

chill man!

2011-02-13T00:27:00.004+08:00

chilling out at timbre.. the athas bar/resturant.
i really enjoyed alcohol!
not boozing out until i lost my senses and whole world become topsy turvey
but just chatting with gd laughs, savouring the company i keep, slowly sipping and soak myself in the atmosphere as the night goes by :D
THAT'S LIFE MAN!

under the hawton tree
this movie has such a super song title! it looks like it came straight out from trashy chinese
mushy novels. when i first heard from QH that the plot surrounds a cancer guy with a village girl and he died in the end, i was so sure the money is going to waste, and why had i agreed to watch a ah tiong movie!

but!
the movie was worth it. nicely paced, enough time to be in line with the story but not slow until you wish you could just fast forward to the end. its a gd production, but not my favourite genre. i hate sad endings. why does he have to die? i still love to live in the fairytale of happily-forever-and-ever.the plot left a heavy imprint i can't shake of the lingering thoughts, i keep replaying it in my head.

我不能等你一年零一个月了，我也不能等你到二十五岁了，但是我会等你一辈子
best line in the movie. cause he died waiting for her.

one day i would regret posting this stupid post. like as if still i'm stuck in the indolecent years

lights out!

2011-01-29T02:06:00.003+08:00

blackouts in our shop due to the newly installed queue system.
the dumb system cause a sudden panic in the shop
when all the processors were blinded

after 30 secs of realisation that the lights wouldn't be coming back so quickly
the seniors went around to remind us to hold on tight to the phones
don't lose them in the midst of darkness

i literally froze and cling on to the handset, cause i don't want to be the one paying for it
and recently i had been approach by a so called talent search
and ask if i am interested in modeling

ok i act nonchalent and uninterested and rejected the offer (of course la it could be just a scam!)
but i actually flying high inside haha me being vain and superficial!
well its still feel gd to be approach :)

Empty wallets gratifying therapy

2011-01-23T00:31:00.007+08:00

i need more ka-ching!
awesome time walking in town
trying to empty my wallet T.T
but it was worth it!
and i still have tons of things i've yet to buy~

i think i need to meet up with 5some soon!!
next stop: USS

few days is all i need

Au revoir

2011-01-19T23:55:00.002+08:00

someone from my shop is quitting
i have the sudden urge to follow suit
this job is so brainless boring banal

and it made me hate wkends T.T
seeing him migrating to the land of unemployment
and gain the long lost freedom
regular lunch break
standard 5 day work wk and confidently say " LETS GO OUT ON SAT!"
is such a irristable offer

i am definitely quitting soon!
ciaos

BLANK

2010-12-29T06:23:00.003+08:00

my job really requires a good grasp of what's happening
and dealing with nasty and difficult ppl
because i am the unlucky soul who have to face with
failing system, unpaid bills and lots of i can't ans you qns

i am always so careless, and sometimes one wrong step
will crumble all myn previous efforts and i have to redo every single thing again!
i need to be more alert and stop serving like 2 customers per hr,
if not wrong the target is 15 min per customer

and the routine of my days are so monotonous
i don't have time for myself, for dramas, for sleep
if not for the sudden bout of i-can't-fall-asleep
i wouldn't even have time to blog

sometimes i wonder if i am just wasting my time
i am just using the time to exchange for the wage
cause i don't think the job is value adding in any way other than
making a few friends there.
i feel so isolated from the world
i don't have anything to talk abt, to anyone, i don't even have
thoughts and opinions for myself cause my life is filled up
with my job and i don't know what's happening in the world right now
it feels like i have derailed from my social circle cause i don't have time to catch up

the scary thing is i don't even have anything for them to catch up to
as i don't think i have changed from the day i took up this job. the feeling
of still stuck in the original state, as if i live my past 2 wks in blanks.

Rest Day :)

2010-12-25T09:46:00.003+08:00

Finally finally its my rest day again!
coming 2 wks all my rest days are on a wkends!
song~

the charm of iphone4
every single morning without fail there would be a snaking
queue outside our shop, waiting for it to be opened.
some ppl even go to the extend of taking half day leave
or chop their coveted place at 3am =.=
its not like starhub is giving out the phone for free
and i think its a marketing strategy to limit the no. of handsets
so that there will be an induced demand.
ppl are dam stupid to fall into the trap la

my work still sucks
everyday have to OT
and tempt staff have to stay back and do housekeeping duties
but i get to make new friends!
the perm staff have the amazing willingness to teach
most of them are super patient, teaching me very simple stuff like
how to use the copy machine :D

all the customers i met are nice ppl
they are not the rushing kind and give me lots of time to do my job
saying thanks and all that
i am just worried that i would be careless and
key in the wrong info or subscribe the wrong plan to them O.O
it would be nightmare
cause i will have to pay for the balance till they terminate their contract!
so cross all my fingers and toes, that i wouldn't make stupid mistake
and my only wish for christmas is
I can do my job without major mistakes and i can quit on june
pls pls pls
santa clause save all your presents to yourself
i just want my wish to come true !!

i'm a breadwinner!

2010-12-19T16:11:00.004+08:00

Yeah! i found a job! :)
oh crap i have to work from now on :(
why can't i be rich!

i can't believe i am going to work tmr
in a real shop!
but i am reluctant to do so, i think i enjoyed my schooling life
too much to entice me to work!

i think it will be super hard!
the customer will bombard me with stupid-and-sorry-i-can't-ans-questions
and the floor manager looks like he is intolerable of mistakes
i am dam scared i will lose all the handphones
crap what if ppl complain!
shit shit shit!
i don't wanna work!

4PM

2010-12-14T16:23:00.002+08:00

its 1630!
and i am all alone at home
there is only 18 ppl on facebk and 14 ppl online on msn
WHY LEH?
cause they are all working!
where is my ice-cream when i get so depressed! argh!!
Mid dec alrdy still jobless :(

Prom is overated!

2010-12-12T23:51:00.002+08:00

hello all secondary and jc grads!
stop flooding facebk with prom photos

they all look the same anyway
and i think prom is childish
where girls and boys spent big money to play dressup
the makeup too often sucks
its the time where ppl criticise how ugly another person look
and facebk made it worse by publicising to the world
and leave a scorching imprint of that terrible night :(
constantly reminding you that.. Yeah you look distasteful that night!

Its so costly
the food is way overprice
and you can't enjoy it! (as pss ppl are watching you! .. yeah right! they are actually too busy worrying abt their own image, so you can stop being so stressful abt how you look cause no one really cares.. really no one)

oh man of course this doesn't not stand for all la duh!
there are amazing looking ppl out there too
e.g angie chua!
ppl who jump out of their usual outfit
who realised their potential
and look confident and just beautiful
who look as comfortable as their own skin
who are naturally well endowed who don't exagerate for the effect

there arejust way too many ppl going prom :(

GET THE PARTY STARTED

2010-12-09T14:31:00.003+08:00

clubbing sucks
its so squeezy
moving around means you have to be
not afraid of pushing through the crowd saying lots and lots of
excuse me and pressing your back against someone elses' chest.
its a claustrophobic's worse nightmare, i think they would probably
sit down there wail and shiver in fear.
some one spilt drinks/puke on my leg when i tried to leave
and i kena scolded vulgarities when i push through the crowd :(

the worst is that it is still addictive.
especially when there is free flow drinks
plus ladies night. the atmosphere is so charged in such a way that you will
sort of be reluctant to leave your friends
you will feel like staying throughout to party with them.
even when they are down right drunk, you just want to get high with them.
the thumping beats and the crazy loud music really gets to you.
i didn't even go to the dance floor to get high but just looking at the
silly ppl gyrating with each other with lusty eyes is dam funny

but the aftermath is hideous
spining heads, hangover, puke, ears ringing and kena grope 100 times
plus all the embaressing drunken moments that came back to you
wah lao. dam cui.

oh wells
i still spend $28 on cab fare so its not really free afterall

thai food

2010-12-06T22:27:00.004+08:00

Hello stranger!
its been too long since i've watch a comedy
the movie was idiotically funny
even though our seats were second row to the screen
cranning our neck sucks .. but still the movie was gd!

dinner was hot!
the spicy maddness was so shiok
not the most spicy dinner but it was close
i was drowning myself with water
and haha the male servers had awesome complexions
on a closer look .. its just that they are gay and wear makeup =.=
isle are good company for thai food :D

the only drawback was
it was at a far away place called kovan ..
took me more than an hour to get home

Feeling freaky

2010-11-30T00:02:00.003+08:00

i hate today! sucks
its the 2nd day fevering
somemore its on the last paper in an aircon room
crap.. the room was cold as hell and i can't concentrate on the paper
plus i haven't been revising due to the watertap nose and high tempt(sucky excuse)
and today is another rainy day
i love rainy days! :D
but not without umbrellas D:
and the interview was =.=

i can't watch too many videos
cause it will fry my brains
with the blanket on i feel hot
without it i feel cold
my muscle ache when ever i tried to move
my ears are constantly ringing, hence no earpiece for me
i eat nothing but bread porridge and soup
only good thing is i lost a measly 500g.

i am now resorting to poping pills!
those orangey panadol extra
bleah only works for a while only lo
omg omg omg
i feel my eyes poping out alrdy!

just pray hard!

2010-11-25T13:03:00.003+08:00

cause there's nothing more that i can do
other than worry and pray hard.

the thought of u turning is not so scary anymore
the very large possibility of not getting a place in uni
and the results is not lousy enough to get you a place back in JC is eating me up

i hope either i get straight Us or a good enough result to go somewhere,
not nowhere.
i now think failing a lvls is a cheery thought. at least i will end up somewhere.
like you get a chance to restart the game.

with my math P2 like crap chem P3 mediocre and ECONS JUST THROWING AWAY MARKS BECAUSE I CAN'T FRIGGING FINISH THE PAPER
i don't think i can get a good enough grade to get into Uni

PLS PLS PLS i don't want to pass my alvls! (with lousy grades)
now i don't even dare to throw any piece of notes and i am downloading all
my litespeed doc

the feeling of nothing you can do, nothing you can look forward to, just hoping for a miricle could happen that i can into any course in uni (really other than nursing and NIE i am ok with any kind). i think that's the price you will pay for just spending hrs and hrs of your precious time on tv, procrastinating all you revision thinking that actually you could have done more.

REPORT

2010-10-19T13:02:00.003+08:00

My 1 day experience in Who lives near you:

DESCRIPTION OF EXPERIMENT
creating a profile on the site
add a few friends
chat abit
some exchange msn
1 exchange no. and text about 1 wk

TYPES OF PEOPLE (majority)
Despos
players
flirts
looking for s**

CHANCES OF GETTING HOOKED UP
99.9999%
one friend recieved 40 msg from unknown guys in half an hr!
guys there look out for clevage shots
girls look out for half naked hot bodies 0.o

IMPACT OF MY LIFE
waste my msgs
waste my time
removes me from my physical social circle
confirm this theory that this is a bad idea

PROBABILITY OF REPEATING EXPERITMENT
zero! the experience is enough to last a life time

CONCLUSION
Although this is experiment don't really have any good ending. It reaffirms me that friendship/relationships should be build upon interactions, understanding and sharing of ideas and events in life, not 300 messages exchanged. To know a person and trust that person is not so easy, i should cherish all the friends around me because they are the ones whom you know are geniunely concern or you really know them through the trials and situations you faced together.
Many thanks to those who were really concern about my well being in this period, and thanks to all who gave advice :)

I'm giving up (case study)

2010-10-19T12:37:00.005+08:00

i have decided! i am not going to continue!

this started when my curiosity was piqued by a friend
like those nosy reporters venturing into the red light district
i found the profile unique and interesting
i intiated to find out more as his vice-free profile seem so
out of place, so unreal.
He seemed clever, intelligent not falling into the disgusting trend
i enjoyed the conversation
his views are seemingly more mature, more worldly
the ambition of his was infectious
we found many stunning similarities in our lives

but as curiosity sedates
i found it a chore to reply his msg
i start to get wary of him
the sometimes incoherent and repetitious msg
the too suggestive msg
the amazing predictions that are always correct!
its so fake and superficial that i realise we create this friendship in a bubble
its time to burst it!

soaking in a hot water bath is nice while it last
but time to get out from it when your skin turns pruney
and the water starts to cool
so the nosy reporter is going to end this experiment~

No hurrays

2010-06-27T16:39:00.002+08:00

the sch is starting tmr
total dread
this one whole month of total relax is ending :(
everything is ending in 6 months time
I'm going to be more POSITIVE this sem :)
6 months more of floating around in the aimless ocean hanging on to drifting log.

i hate it

2010-06-14T21:27:00.001+08:00

Fate is often cruel filled with endless malice
It fog up your disilliusioned eyes
and later make you regret the decisions you made
be it the person you once loved or pals you once called friends
i fell off the bandwagon and jump on to the wrong ship.
now my only solace is that the journey is ending soon.

i just have to carry on with my role in this meaningless charade
i am so tired
just want to flush them out of my life
or am i frustrated at myself for not being like them ?

maybe i am just peeved at myself for not being able to accept their diversity of characters
i am just irritated that i am not as magnamious as i thought, or maybe i am just
hating them for leaving me out.. outcasting me.
i nv ever felt like one of them anyway

they made my jc life filled with regrets, for making the chasm between the other classmates so huge that i couldn't jump across. i love company and gd laughter, but now i am bereft of both. why have i landed myself in this state?

seeing doubles?

2010-06-11T23:54:00.008+08:00

sometimes i would wonder what "Yifang"meant to you.
what is the first word that comes to your mind?
what's my impression towards others?

i know different ppl have seen different sides of me
congrates if you've seen the worst of me
cause the slightly evil, full of doubts and abit mean
and a little bit selfish yifang plus lots of laughter and lame-ness
often cynical, fickle minded and half the time heartless half the time too soft
always complaining yifang is kind of who i am
congrates you pass the true friend test.

too bad if i am the best kindest angel you've met on earth
cooing nice sweet words to you, never ever said something negative
never ever criticise ppl thats because
i don't trust you at all , i walled my self against you
and can't be bothered to open the door
to the Yifang world.
or i just love you to the max and i just won't tain you
with all my nasty parts of me

long overdued

2010-06-04T00:59:00.003+08:00

awesome badminton sessions
choir concert
chalet
drama night
birthdays
tests midyr
movies lunch..
to lazy to rewind back.. but nonetheless many things happened in the past .. 1.5 months?
the most up and current is to congratulate
the Miss Low-to-Mrs Chia transition
happy marriage to you~

Prince of persia
more for kids or ppl with overactive imagination
but decent enough to worth the 6 dollars
and i have to sneak the melting, barely touched ice cream
into the theater D: and i cleverly just stuff it into my bag
thinking that if i walked carefully enough the ice cream wouldn't spill
and that was of course a complete bull shit.
it soiled my bag and bleah .. my gc and the library bk(thank gdness not MY BK!)
then the movie was nice enough to fill my afternoon..

P.S i happened to stay just beside OCH to know that it is nothing more that
a white building with long history and many irritating mosquito .. but my aunts claimed otherwise?

2010-05-22T11:48:00.002+08:00

All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places, worn out faces
Bright and early for their daily races
Goin' nowhere, goin' nowhere
Their tears are fillin' up their glasses
No expression, no expression
Hide my head I want to drown my sorrow
No tomorrow, no tomorrow

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

Children waitin' for the day they feel good
Happy birthday, happy birthday
Made to feel the way that every child should
Sits and listen, sits and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me, no one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world

And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dyin'
Are the best I've ever had
I find it hard to tell you
'Cause I find it hard to take
When people run in circles
It's a very, very
Mad world, mad world
Mad world, mad world
A raunchy young world
Mad world

Shamefaced

2010-04-30T22:14:00.002+08:00

Many thanks to no one but myself
this is retribution or rather i brought all
this upon on myself
i was the one who made the dumb choice
i was the one who don't have enough intelligence
i was the one who was weak and susceptible to temptations
NO I DIDN"T GET PREGNANT
i just subject myelf to behavioral mortification
that's all.

i am so sorry
but it wasn't i who spew the rubbish
i just happened to be at the crime scene thats all
but deep down i know it was a wrong to be near at all
by even staying near the UNNAMED, i am sining

Double the fun

2010-04-25T21:23:00.004+08:00

I OFFICIALLY STEP DOWN ALREADY!
woooooooooooooooohooooooooooo!
awesomeness
went with guitar peeps to Vienna for buffet
the food is quite decent
the company was great!
and i must really really thank Alicia for the note
and the small gift
seriously dam touch
well it all ended with a high note, now all focused on my studies!

then nua~~ at united sq with qh before meeting up with
edna yilin and sam to sing k
but sam sam was held back by a demanding customer
who bought 10k worth of bra and max out all her 20 credit cards
SERIOUSLY!
her boobs is made out of GOLD meh
so sam sam had to rush over to meet us
and she spent 30 bucks singing 3 songs D:
but this is the first time in long long long time that
we spent more than 3 hours together as Fivesome :))
i missed it
and i really hope the trip will work out for all of us

Awesomeness

2010-04-19T20:44:00.002+08:00

i went out on sat after my tuition!
with qh and yilin for dinner movie and coffee
pity the rest didn't make it

but we have a awesome awesome time
it was a refreshing breather for me
after the rounds of lect test hmwk and lots of unhealthy stress
i finally get to have some fun

though just the normal stuff we would do like eat movie and talk
i thought i would get detached with the real world
and now then i found out yilin got a job! as a waffle girl
now she get to have free flow waffles ice cream and coffee :D

and sch today was awfully slow
and i am so so sorry to angie
i think intellectual stuff bore her TTM
sorry i couldn't stop myself D:

i feel dam guilty to make her endure my nonsensical
mumbles abt RBM :(

PS man

2010-04-13T00:26:00.002+08:00

just finish the 7th episode
and i feel that i should blog abt
my haywired brain
how come everytime i wish that the main lead would
end up together with the supporting role??
as in it should be the the main guy gets the girl plot
but it feels so wrong!
the supporting role seems like a nicer person
better in many ways, often pining all their hopes on the
main lead, but alas the other main lead gets the girl?!

is it me or is it the stupid plot?

stinky and happy

2010-04-12T21:23:00.003+08:00

i am so desire motivated
so easily succumb to temptations
when i see things i want i will not exercise self constrain
thats why my wallet is feeling empty nowadays :(

and today played badminton with qh sheean
after sch. its awesome, i actually perspire! ever since PE was
touch rug i never really sweat anymore.
it is really worth having blister on my finger
but too bad i am wearing uniform
sticky and stinky aftermath

2 test coming up!
shit~ and priscilla yap mumbles when she lectures
seriously hate it cause can't catch half of what she said

0910 ftw

2010-03-30T19:51:00.002+08:00

Good news is
I PASSED NAPFA!
and the last time i ever ran the whole
2.4 was last yr napfa!
even though my results wasn't so fantastic la
but still.. its a silver leh~

and the rounds and rounds of test, hmwk
and the suddenly so hardworking classmates are
scary.

and yeah i got a bloody B when 3/4 of my class got A
for chem test. =.= sian!
and i really studied for the test somemore lo

and our class was so awesome
for the first time 0910 got to
the well-done list!

0910 FTW !!

After it rains

2010-03-15T21:39:00.004+08:00

When it was raining this afternoon....
i am sitting in sakae filling myself up with
lots and lots of fried tofu and sushi
those soft and white tofu chunks coated with a thin crispy layer
of batter laced with a layer of savoury dak sweet sauce
who can resist that?

but the stupid LDMU sets in and spoil everything
i swear, by the 3rd plate i wish i can just get it refunded
and me being greedy gorged down 24 plates
no la half only.. the other half was contributed by qian hui

12 plates enough to kill me
the strain in my tummy and
its like every step pains me

After it rains..
so i decided to walk qh home to digest away the food
and the first quarter of the road was terrible
i get stitches from walking at that crawling speed =.=
ya it was bleh
but ultimately it began to get better
as i walk through the park connecters near qh home
letting clean air after rain to fill my lungs and the balmy trees
looks .. green lo
it feels like i can go on walking forever
the route we took is the long detour
its more than 1 km, but it feels like 100m.
at the end of it the horrible feeling just went away.

and i go back home to sleep until 9
hoping somehow the calories will disappear
fat hope la

horrible vegetable

2010-03-10T20:56:00.003+08:00

errr
why should i accept it in the first place?
what the..
usually i will just be shy and firmly convince that
i don't want it. smile. say thank you. don't take things you don't deserve.
things that you didn't pay for.

".... give a day's work for a day's pay. anything less would be stealing"

and now i feel guilty like hell

Best friends

2010-03-07T23:10:00.017+08:00

best friends from growing up
having goals and vision align with each other
but as time passes we begin to
diverge from each other, as we get to know the world.

i find out who really am
and what i want, then i realise that people
i've known forever don't see things the way i do.

its annoying at first.
i can't seem to realise what made
embracing spontaneous changes so difficult
or why i refuse to stay the same Me for the next
don't know how many years.
slowly bit by bit
the differences became more and more pronouce
but i came to respect that difference
knowing its ok to be different

and so we keep the wonderful memories but find myself moving on
Its perfectly normal i guess
people changes with time
and get into different phases of their life

they keep the special link they share deep in their hearts
and they never stop moving on.
once in a while i pause.
and take a look back
you will always be there

i wouldn't be forever 18 and you wouldn't too

THANKS

2010-03-06T22:21:00.002+08:00

There is always this special day in your year
feeling more cherished than ever.
the awesome thing is to refresh and
rediscover who are the special ppl to you :)
they are the ones who filled the blanks
and bring joy to life

Thanks to all who remembered.
Thanks to all who made this day worth celebrating

Last day of 17

2010-03-04T20:58:00.002+08:00

i hope i can freeze the moment
stay at 17 forever
reminds me of a drama
ai sha 17, talks abt a girl having 2 sides of life
wanting to stay at 17 and end up killing herself

18 is a big step to take
a milestone to cross
like when the clock struck 12
i am no longer a child
i have different responsibility
i am suppose to have a more matured mind
its like a semi adult phase
but i still feel like i am a stupid childish kid
not really feeling up to being 18

the last day of 17 have to be so crappy
i feel terrible abt my results
whole day glum and grumpy
and PMS for the past few days feeling
so tense and tired
yeah and its really PMS
cause ya .. today kena 雨天
so sorry friends! blame my mood swing on
the haywired body of mine!

but from tmr onwards
will be a refreshing change i will be more
than ever motivated to study hard!

itchy hands

2010-03-01T21:43:00.002+08:00

i can feel the heat!
when everyone is mugging
what am i doing?
shouldn't i be working just as hard?
or should i take everything at my stride.

the chem prac had left me with itchy hands
even as i am typing now, i can feel the faint tingling la
cause i accidentally spilled hcl on my hands
and later learned from angie that its super duper concentrated hcl
i can literally feel my hands corroding now

recently i get caught up with books from Nicholas sparks
not all his books have happily forever ending
but the love and ties expressed are
so intense, as if everlasting.

but i wouldn't read books with very sad endings
so to prevent that from happening
i will flip to the last chapter and have the ending in mind
before i start on the book
some will find it a spoiler
but i take it as a another approach to read
its like pivot my thoughts with an ending in mind
and see how the story works its way to the ending
somewhere in the middle i will work out the million ways
for the story to go on and
or sometimes i will just read and marvel at how the story progresses

this is the longest post i had in ages

UGLY

2010-02-23T20:02:00.004+08:00

great
my hair sucks now :(
like hell! why couldn't i learn my lesson
should only let people i trust to touch my fringe
hate it when some funny people go mess with my hair
making me the new ah toot

and gerald tay is back!
new motivation to study econs xD

i hate wed.

its 5 again

2010-02-14T22:29:00.004+08:00

YES SAM IS IN SINGAPORE NOW!
woah xD
missed her truckloads
happy happy advance birthday edna!
i am suprised at edna not being suprised
lol
how can she not be leh? .. cause she is too clever
and see through the ploy

seoul garden made me miss my sch =[
dia-rea + fever too bad lo
and i feel so bad for missing the isle thing
but i met up with qian hui @ bishan
cause my books are going to be due soon
and she say she want a debt free brand new yr
we sat down and talk in the cafe.
it had nice atmosphere
good enough for us to sit and forget about the ticking clock

and CNY is plain boring
waiting for whole day
doing nothing but slouching on sofa
=[

Happy day :)

2010-02-10T23:00:00.002+08:00

oh i feel dam dam guilty today keas
i slept in econs lect =[
i made a serious mistake in my cca
i ate a big (and quite ex) dinner =[[

but still today feel so happy
doing mundane packing with isle peeps is fun!
and i realise after being in the irritiable mood
for the past few days, i miss the happy times
like feel feeling bright and cheery all the time.
hope it will continue till as long as it will last!

haha and qh did a dumb thing today!
lol thats really the most funny thing
had in ages
go read her blog sia!

no hard feelings

2010-02-06T18:49:00.007+08:00

i just want to shut off the world
for a while just half a day
life had been too demanding.
want to pass the time with
no excitment no disapoointment
no anger no satisfaction whatsoever
one plain afternoon
thats what i am asking for

that kind you can just watch stupid shows
and eat lots of junk food and happily doze
off on your bed.

no need to think of commitments
working hard, or feeling oh so awesome
i want to feel nothing. empty my brain
so the heavy feelings wouldn't hold me down

can it come true?

2010-01-30T23:01:00.005+08:00

fatigue never leave me alone
now almost everyday have to drag myself
for the 730 lesson
so tired can
i feel so fried
i almost can fall asleep anywhere anytime

have dinner with the usual
and we talked till the library closed
but it still feel too short leh

today went out to national library
and to bugis
and met Juliana and Yiling~
lol they all so free, not stuck with their boyfriends
but national library was futile
no la .. at least it was a relief to my
aching feet.

taking the 1 small step
to kick start the whole journey?

sleep deprived

2010-01-27T20:41:00.003+08:00

i am really really really deprived
and i hate the new system for taking attendance
i was on dot keas!
lesson starts at 9 i tapped my card at 8.58
and ms lee says too bad you are late cause you need to
report at 8.55
and i want to see you 730 on tue
sian ..
my only single day i get to wake up at 7 instead of 5!
and she made me stand in front of the line today!
another thing that i detest alot

my wish is that we will have a chance to go
overseas together.
make some memories that will last for many many years
to come
50 yrs down the road
i will be able to recount my youthful days
and say
been there done that

It's so not Edward!

2010-01-22T11:05:00.002+08:00

Daybreaker
a must watch!
thought i scream like mad and hide under
kx jacket, but its worth it.
twilight is so =.= compare to it

hehe i had fun with clique + qh
finally think my nebo card is useful
but i bet the only use of nebo card is discount for
chalets and board gaming lo

today is second round of fun
with isle ppl!
song~

faith

2010-01-20T21:47:00.003+08:00

people who are equally dear to me
if we all have 48 hrs
wouldn't that be nice?

don't worry we didn't forget xD
you know it that how much we also want to be there

myself

2010-01-17T00:20:00.004+08:00

i had a good day rest
i love a gd movie
a gd book a gd story a gd drama
i just like to slow things down
and watch stories of others
a nice tune. a beautiful photo
just amaze by how it capture my heart
how my mood rise and fall along
with the cresendo and descendo of music
and feel awed by how a picture
spark my train of thoughts

yeah today is a great day even if i have to do chores for my
father
i stole sometime to be alone
and watch videos. recently i am helplessly addicted to them
hope this wouldn't affect my studies too much

i think i am getting more and more like a loner
i sometimes feel that i am just not on the same page with
the rest of the world
i enjoy times on my own
in my own sanctuary
trap in my own thoughts
but when i get loney sometimes
feeling all alone one against the world

not that i don't enjoy great company of friends
just that i enjoy being with myself just as much

and this post sound like i am having a high time
of my life shit la .. i still have block test shouldn't be so engross
with enjoyment ?

hey work harder la

2010-01-11T23:52:00.004+08:00

Realised how much i lagged behind
hope its not too late?
a result of slacking too much

today is the day for ppl taking olevels
and ok YAN CHONG XI totally suprised me
by being a 4 pointer student la
seriously
to the max can
my first 4 pointer friend ..
give me some of your brain cells
and hope i can do as well for the A levels this year

today i saw people with tear stained faces
crumbling their results slips
and teachers giving them useless words of comfort
disappointment engulfing them
not doing well enough even for a poly course
no where to go. got themselves stuck in this cruel education system
This is just a rude reminder that i have to work hard
or i will just end up in that pathetic crying state

well on a lighter note
i saw a rare EC today
a new young pe teacher in amkss
woah
he is really really awesome looking, sian why he didn't come to amkss
when i was still there
heard that he is a much sought after teacher in sch
dam popular
aww

that's just how i want it to be

2010-01-01T18:01:00.002+08:00

i spend my last few hours of 2009 with great company
ISLE mates and the cycling clique!

Kboxed with the girls
angie was dam hilarious with her commentaries
and her mic fight with hogger hui

and i went off to count down at east coast
with qh hui and getting on a weird bus 16
and the weird bus uncle who dao me and speak to me
angrily in god knows what langauge?
and we alighted at a wrong bus stop hurray!

well at least we manage to walk to our dear friends who had been waiting for us
and burn off all those awful calories

and tada .. we reached
counted down and cycled and had fun!
and step into the
10th year of the millenium

for the past many days i had not been working at all
just trying to waste myself away
by watching tons of shows .. not that i didn't enjoy but
the feeling after a marathon of drama serial
is like .. yeah ... chiong finish le
then? so ?
its worse off when the show has a no ending
left you hanging in mid air and realise you totally
wasted the time watching the show. dumb.

Lets get it 3D

2009-12-30T18:20:00.002+08:00

Avatar 3D is just awesome
caught the 2D version with yy kx ali and serene yesterday
and the 3D one with Qh today after guitar.
and the forest look dam real
the ash flakes and when the bee flies closer out of the screen
i actually tried to swat it away

seriously the queue for movies is like super long nowadays
how come cinemas are flooded with people?
cause its one of the last few days they get to enjoy their holidays?
LOL

looking back

2009-12-23T13:04:00.004+08:00

i realise i miss deja vu food. i miss the people who will call me tou gei ni. i miss badminton sessions!! i miss the whole trip.
though its time to get on with homework, presentations, and the living pace i use to have. all i can feel and can talk about the trip.
i am missing the both sides of life. the fast paced purposeful one, and the simple slow kind of living

we should really have a gathering
lets go THAI EXPRESS and gin khao!

50 special things about this trip

1. hong nam yu tee nai
2. gin khao
3. angie saying chan chop hong nam
5. deja vu
6. 把手举起来
7. 头给你
8. sabai club
9. breaking water pipes
10. stupid chickens
11. bathing in the river
12. cold water
13. 15 bhat ice creams
14. pokey sharing sessions
15. carl singing with guitar sessions
16. campfire outside the house
17. the clingy kids
19. ot to le seng ah seng ah seng ah
20. the sing all you can times
21. night bazzar!
22. using torch lights (in s'pore where can we even use it?)
23. the stary stary skies
24. people who fall asleep during meteor shower
25. talking session
26. facilitation
27. shitting in nice toilets
28. all the pi daow pi friend pi nu
29. people trying to make me jealous xDD by getting intimate with qh
30. bananas? nooot i hate bananas but you all keep spaming them lol
31. BOY AND BIM
32. badminton
33. why are you like that?!
34. GG.com
35. climbing all those super steep mountains and falling down
36. awesome sunrise
37. keep spaming photos
38. eathing sleeping and eat again
39. sharing malaria pills
40. murderer
41. jingjia calling mr lim coconut
42. shopping spree at big c
43. crashing at other people house
44. flies flying over my food
45. sing a long session in the church
46. getting lost in the big meadow
47. singing xi shui chang liu
48. ovatine! rocks to the max!
49. being a digger
50. the 22 ppl

lets play find the ~~murderer~~ backstabber game
you are just being a bastard

I AM BACK

2009-12-21T11:21:00.002+08:00

I feel so disorientated in my hse, after living in the Thailand for so half a month I feel the weird sense of unfamiliarity, but somehow its still the same like for eg I would place my adapters in this particular corner or I would throw my wallet in a particular space. And I feel particularly unconnected with the world, LKY could have died and I would know about it.

And its really a pity that isle had come to an end, I really miss all the hardwork playtimes and sabai- ing time with the whole team.

22 random ppl in the school population of 1000+ came together. Worked hard together for half a year. To somewhere 1131 miles away from home, and live eat sleep shit play for half a month. Many thanks to these 22 random people.

Well the 16 days in Thailand was a life changing one. Homestay with the villagers for six days was the most impactful life lesson anyone could have given me. Staying in a almost slum like conditions, ok not so bad la … but living in a community so backward, the state of development equivalent to Singapore 40 years ago, was such a shocker. The kids there was as though like my father 40 years ago.

I only knew that I was going to a six day home stay only the day before I was going to the village, apparently the whole team only the mr lim knows about this and all along he thought we all know. So being unprepared I didn’t know what to expect, and I almost drop my mouth when I get there. A true blue kampong to the max village. Not only there was chickens and dog running about, the houses there are built mainly based on wood and a little bit of cement here and there. The richer the family is, the more cemented the house will get. There is not even a single car in the village they drive their all time favourite motorcycle. Kids there could drive at 12, and some of them have pickup trucks. Forget about the nice tiled pavement we have everywhere in Singapore, the pavement is just sand and mud everywhere. Their feet and my feet were permanently dirty there. Even after I bath, cause it will only stay clean for 1 sec. when my wet slippers touch the sandy ground. Haha the whole feet turns muddy, there is no point keeping feet clean in the village. Oh forgot to say that there is around 100 households in the village and there is only 2 super ulu mama shop that is smaller than any typical mama shop. And the whole village don’t have a fridge, not even the mama shop owns 1.

My host was a grandma and grandpa around 60 years of age and a 13 yrs old girl, Bim and her brother Boy who is 11 yrs old. Their house is the normal sized in the village the whole house is the around the size of a Hdb flat living room. The kitchen was small and dirty. It only has one stove and the utensils are placed in a basket on a floor there was only one tiny table filled with trash. No running water tap in the kitchen, water had to be carried up from the tap downstairs to cook. Compare to our kitchen with at least 3 stoves, a proper table, a running tap with sink 1 full set of cabinets, oven, hot water flask and many more. They are really living with the bare minimum. The meals are prepared on the floor, the vegetables are chopped on the floor. Meat is rare treat for them. Their television is not even coloured (due to bad reception..) and worse, the water only runs at 5 am and 5pm. Not even a trickle of water runs out when I tried to on the tap.

They gave us their only room to sleep which is around 3m by 5m. The rest of the family had to squeeze into a smaller partition of the house. It was a small light-less room so at night it was pitch dark, somemore the sun will start to set at 5, so the whole room is pitch dark by 630. There were lots and lots of spider webs with huge dead spiders still hanging on to it. There wasn’t enough space for me to sleep straight( cause 3 of us me qh and Cheryl is sleeping in the same room).

When night falls the whole place just get so so so cold. My 2 jackets plus sleeping bag plus blanket was not enough to ward off the cold, the whole place get to below 10 degrees at night. I couldn’t sleep for the first night, cause it was just too cold, and the stupid insomniac cock starts to crow at 3am?! Lol just as I was about to doze off at 5 am I realose the grandma had woke up already filling up the water vats at the tap outside the house in the stone cold weather, while I am still in my comfortable sleeping bag trying my best to fall asleep. So I woke up in 6 am and get up to brush my teeth. Dang! My favourite part of the whole house, the toilet was the only thing I had to use the most amount of time to overcome my fear, cause I have to use it every single day. There was no tap in the toilet. So forget about the sink and flushing cistern. There are pails of water there and a squatting toilet seat. After all business is done, we had to scoop water from the pails to flush out what we had expelled. And worse of all there is no toilet paper! Heng I got bring my own toilet paper, or else I don’t know what to do for the six days. kk continue in next post?

fly away!

2009-12-04T07:31:00.003+08:00

isle preperation finally come to an end!
the first meeting was what? in march?
till now december le~ so fast
we are flying there tmr!! omg
now dam excited for tmr to come
half a month in thailand !
ciaos~~

you are the big thing

2009-11-30T20:23:00.005+08:00

shocking
whats more suprising is that i don't have a trace of anger
in me, i don't care anymore?
i don't know

the big thing in our life
the whole circle indeed revolve around you
everyone's bestfriend i guess
you are worth much more attention/care/love than anyone else
cause you are always the one giving more than ppl actually deserve
your kindly soul had touched ppl in many many ways
making others eternally grateful for your presence on earth

Friends are not the BIG THING!
they are a million of small little things
that makes our life wonderful in small little ways

your msyterious self
had crossed the line to be come secretive.

sawadee ka~~

2009-11-22T14:36:00.002+08:00

yes!
i am so excited with ISLE
in 2 weeks time i will be off to thailand!
really looking forward to it..
and i went to little india with marla and shu ting
to buy hena cones and bindi..
never thought little india really looks like india minus ppl slping
on the streets lol
reminds me of the sec3 trips with my dearest friends
i missed those times

and yea! we should meet up soon!
got lots of catching up to do =]]

made it

2009-11-16T19:02:00.002+08:00

i promoted
the first milestone reached
but surprisingly i don't feel a dam thing
i should be jumping for joy, scream out loud
however i just feel hollow.
no satisfaction, disappointment whatsoever

only been through the harsh reality
after the cold hard facts infiltrated our mind
we realise the warmth of friendship, our chanced
encounter with each other was the amazing tweak of fate.
the chances that could have slipped through
if i had loosen the grasp.

when we are all together

deep down
my class will always have 20 members!

sick

2009-11-15T08:01:00.002+08:00

my throat hurts like hell
its scratchy and irritating.
and i realised i took the wrong dose of antibiotics
its should be 2 and i only eat 1 capsule
no wonder it seems like it will nv heal

and work was terrible
it was so dam stressed to work beside the boss and
have a snaking queue behind you
the boss was rushing me like siao
and when the procedure was keyed wrongly the whole machine
would eject out the money
then kena suan like hell

well i think its time to put my focus back to what i suppose to do?
yeah i need to set my priorities right

and there is NE trip!
to the marina barrage gallery
and it was pouring when we reach there.
so almost everyone was wet
and i am one of the few goondoos who where covered shoes
and everyone else wore their flops!
sian my feet was soaked to the bones.

after the gallery walk we
walked on the cemented path along the grassy patch
and when we took a long hard look at the water flowing down from the grassy
patch to the cemented path
there was hundreds and hundreds of wormy mealworms =[
omg .. i had sat on the grass, walk bare footed on the grass before leh ..
somemore could the mealworms wormed their way to our food??
yuck~

we had lunch together as a class~
and went home.

ooooh i am soooo excited abt tmr huh? ..
sian

First Day @ work

2009-11-11T21:18:00.002+08:00

i am working now
went to woodgrove sec to sell uniform ..
not a fantastic job but at least i am getting paid to slack
time is incredibly slow when you have nothing to do at all
today whole 6 hrs only get like 10 customers..
whole day stone and do stock take.
i heard that it wouldn't be that easy when
orientation comes=[

but alas since its after OP
and still got some time, might as well make it worth well

Last lap

2009-11-08T01:11:00.002+08:00

MON!
the very very very last part of PW
everyone is waiting for it to end!

went for sch for isle..
and helped angie to buy logistics .. see i am so guai
could have run away to town with qh straight away
but just help her lo since i promised her anyway
and me being deprived of going to shop and gai gai
for a super long time, spent too much la
but then it still feel so good to go out!
so shuang~ ttm
i can just feel happy over some ice cream, no big agenda
just walking through the streets
finding back my life
oh
i actually have a life!

changes
ppl change in the most inexplicable way

PW

2009-11-01T11:17:00.003+08:00

Went to TTSH
for 2 jabs on fri, its not painful, but so suan like
they injected lemon juice in me

and filmed our grp's video for OP
it was awsome fun time
yeah i look totally retarded in the flim though

i am so addicted to plants vs zombie ..
shit now become gamer le la

same place
doing the same thing
deja vu?
not..
ppl go on ppl change,
still running on the spot, refusing to move
will get you no where but that same square

hectic

2009-10-27T22:45:00.002+08:00

okay
i am just going to use 5 mins on this post
that's all i can afford
cause life had been a busy bee
today just reached home from hui syen's hse
and i have to continue doing the OP slides
dam tiring la.....

had not been having enough slp =[
aww my pimples are popping out!
i seriously can't wait for PW to end!
i need my weekend!
i need my beauty sleep!
i need my OP slides

okay 5 mins up , that's all i can afford
back to OP

Bug spray pls..

2009-10-23T02:06:00.001+08:00

there are just too many butterflies in my tummy for me to sleep
=[
tmr is result day!
shit!

BORED !!

2009-10-17T17:03:00.001+08:00

ITS SO BORING!
got nothing to do !!

i rather go back sch to study then rot at home
i think i might be bored that i might start watching
gossip girls =[

0910 chalet

2009-10-16T11:59:00.002+08:00

just ended the very short class chalet yesterday
yea it was fun no doubt
but so short, left me with a chalet-ing mood
haha i was drunk and got crazy on the second night
well never really get drunk before .. this is really first time i find myself
not really remembering what i had done
other than laughing till my lungs hurt

now having chalet withdrawal symtoms ..
my head hurts like don't know what
fevering plus sore throat totally left me writhing in bed =[

euphoria

2009-10-12T20:22:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA
my PROMOS ARE SO OVER
a thing of a past!
i don't care if i promote anot ( temporary la)
i am going to live the moment and enjoy myself

breaking free the restraining load
with pure relief pulsating through every fibre of me
i feel so light, so burden-less
no need to think, no need to use my brains
just give everything and enjoy myself to the MAX

i can go out with friends. i can read books till my eyes hurt.
i can watch drama shows like no body business
totally! awesome! with no guilty face entailed!

and today lunch was nice with edna yilin and qh!
though it was real short, and its a once in a month thing
nice begining to all the holidays xDDDD

letting enjoyment to engulf me =]

my name was anounced.. how cool is that?

2009-10-08T00:14:00.003+08:00

no that's totally uncool
cause i lost my ezlink card during the econs paper
(ok its not the first time i lose my card during major exams .. thank god i always got it back)

econs paper ended .. i rushed to out of the hall cause i am so hungry from all the
8 pages of scribilingi want to eat my mac breackfastwith qh.
and just as i was abt to walk to the mrt i realised its gone =[
but i was so numb from losing things, i didn't panic, just walk back to the hall and look for it
but can't find it la of course
and i when i thought all is gone and i have to spend 20 bucks on the stupid card
i got it back

geez .. can you imagine?
5 min before the physics paper starts
the teacher ask the whole hall " is there a Tan Yi Fang? and a ??? ) cause your ezlink is here
thats hmm .. whole hall watching your every single step .. and i have to sit at the back of the hall?
but at least no need to waste $$ and who ask me to be so careless

on the bright side promos is ending soon
3 more papers and dang! i am free hahaha
1 whole yr of non stop work .. its crazy .. finally its nearing the mid stop
i really hope i can promote
so that i wouldn't need to restart everything

i am worried too

2009-09-22T23:31:00.002+08:00

my tutor just said
yifang i am quite worried about you. you are just so careless.
who is going to check for your mistakes when you are doing the paper
am i going to retain?

i want i really want
to graduate the same time with my friends
no i don't want another year in nyjc

i want to graduate the same time so
i can be 1 step nearer
to the dream, the faraway dream of traveling with the 5
what if i retain? then i will spoil everything.
with the sucky a levels i have to take 1 yr late

i don't want another round of orientation!
no that would be a nightmare!
no i don't want a new class,
i don't want to start all over again, from zero
i don't want to know that for the past 1 yr all my tiniest effort to
studies had gone down the drain
sq 1 all over again from binomial and counting no. of mols
when all the others moved on
without me, to a levels to university to organic chem and complex numbers
worse is you get retain and you see ppl younger than you and yet doing better
than you, somemore they are first time going through the jc curriculum

i seriously don't know how can ppl retain?
every single chapt all over again. like all the assignment redo. all tutorials
redo.
every single piece of notes print again
all the foolscap wasted
retain- its worse than getting kicked out of the sch.

i would go smashing all the clocks in sch
if only time could stop

all play no work makes me = ??

2009-09-06T18:35:00.002+08:00

had loads of fun the last few days
but didn't studied much =[
opps
and i think i will do quite badly for physics lect test this time
shouldn't have placed all my stakes on forces.. crap who knew collision
took up like 1/2 the marks?
ok mr soh knew and didn't revise with us
bleh .. its just me who should had revised harder

i even went for night study with classmates to prepare for the test
okay .. i studied forces then ..
lets hope the forces part will save me =((

and the super couch potato yf went for the inter hse games!
netball somemore!
i remembered how i use to slack off and sit down to watch the others practice
and yawn and stone whenever the ball was passed to me during the secondary sch days
but well .. i am amazed at myself too =]
we played 3 games and yep it was quite cool
won only 1 out of the 3 games though

and the best of the last three days!
i went all the way to katong
with alison and huisyen they all to sing K
haha! its awesome! never sing for a long long long time
and its first time not going to Kbox.. but Teoheng this time
and the rates there is ... wow ..
dam cheap i tell you .. i am not going to kbox again~~
and had kt laksa ... the kind that no need use chopsticks
cause they cut up the noodles and all you ever need is
a spoon and your mouth.
then trained home after that

ok i did some stuff today
though slack most of it away
promos coming
got to work hard!

how can that ever be?

2009-09-01T23:00:00.004+08:00

The fresh coat of colours to my fading memories
Time, a ultra strong bleach
that fades memories
i sometimes forget how important, the 5 is to me
sometimes will neglect one another in small ways
sometimes will show that nochalant, indifferent sides to each other
sometimes will start to guess what's wrong with ???
sometimes will start to assume
sometimes will make wrong decision
sometimes will think things are getting repetative
sometimes will be angry
sometimes feel disappointed
sometimes do the wrong things that you know will hurt the other

but we must constantly add colours to the memories we once had.
never forget the megawatt smiles or the unglam crying faces.
so that we being together will willstand the strongest bleaching agent,
so moments of laughter and tears will forever be locked in our lazy forgetful brains
ok i think i am getting heavy here

so with constants remain unchange, lets get on with our ever changing life

i want to tell you
nothing but all the best
give in your everything
enjoy life there just like you'd back here in Singapore
lastly i know i don't say that alot
but love you lots!

sick D:

2009-08-25T20:59:00.002+08:00

yesterday MC day.
went to the polyclinic .. waited for 2.5 hrs .. seriously
dam dam slow can
and the doc also says i have low pulse rate.. too low for normal ppl
so thats the reason for my constant lethargy and me falling asleep in lectures
and i go google abt it .. seems quite ehh .. not a bright looking symtom la

i am well again today! =]
stupid day for me.. i forgot to bring my notes my tutorials.
so feel abit lost the whole day =(

my class totally craze for blueberry tarts!
its appearing everywhere near me ..
and today econ's test might have a teeny weeny chance to pass ?
since this is the very first time that i wrote so much for the econs
and ms lee is so hyper today.
didn't scold me for not bringing my stuff, must be lian ai liao la

today i had tuition again.. and had to lug the pile of wksht everywhere i go
but before that had a big lunch with 0910
haha .. and its the end of the month again
broke to the max T.T

argggghhh i don't know how to do functions! shit

PE and me

2009-08-18T22:05:00.003+08:00

i think PE had become more fun!
totally like PE without PT =D
PE with tau huay is even better!!
oh shit tmr is SPA.. heard that the results from other classes not so gd
jia lat ..

i hope i can get gd results tmr T.T
and i realise i had been slping too much in lectures especially econs
seriously should control abit la
ppl who sit beside me like quite suay cause i start to lean in
and get closer and closer and almost fall on to them. then i will
suddenly jerk back and after 5 secs i will start to lean in again =.= ..
(thats according to my class mates, i swear i feel like nothing but a peaceful rock)
thats bad

hey stop the cold war la ..
or like that very gan ga leh ..
who would have expect that?

my national day holiday!

2009-08-11T20:45:00.002+08:00

its marina barrage again!
but if only we go 1 day earlier then can see the beautiful fireworks..
but its still fun=]
watching ppl fly kites and take all those unglam pictures haha!
thanks to Qian hui .............. mother for all the food. seriously the food she make is AWESOME~
and to ppl who could make it!
of course
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY to YILIN and YEW HUANG

today there's firedrill
and the first period lecturer told us .. so i was anticipating for that stupid bell to go off
hoping i could skip some econs .. and i waited and waited
until i sort of fell asleep during the econs lecture and suddenly RINGGGGG the bell
went off at the last 5 mins of the lecture =.=
and worse, it eat into my breaktime T.T
that lecturer shouldn't leak it out lo ... make me go happy for nothing ..
and today what chingli said was so true
that i am so lonely during my tution.
hai .. everyone in the class is either from AJC or HCI, dam stress lo. i am the only
single one. there used to be another YJC loner but change his class to sun.
so now i am only the sad LONER in class.. sob sob
everyone have friends i don't T.T

so math tuition.. anyone?

you did it again

2009-08-08T20:10:00.003+08:00

woke up super early and went for breakfast with qh
mac griddles for me! just realised that everytime i eat mac breakfast i will order
griddles, cause its such a sunshine way to start your day :)

watch the captain ball match in shcool
though didn't win but our class was not bad la
after that lunched at dhouby xchange with classmates and
went to sell wristbands! for 2 bucks each
didn't expect myself to sell more than 5.
but students are just so easy to target. xD

i saw some scammers, a family of indian bengs was smoking and sitting outside
the mrt station. then some of the family members were like asking the passerbys
to donate some money to help the girl who just got out of the girl's home to get her back to sch?!
go normal sec sch need so much $ meh! and with that muderous looking tattoo on their arms they look more like want to fight or something lo, fat hope la like got sch will want to accept her?
lols and the guys chiong the sales till the end when i was alrdy half dead. kudos to them!

had a long bus ride home. its not crowded and it gives me some time for myself, just to shush down a bit and rest a while. i saw someone that i thought i will never see again. someone who hadn't appear in my mind a long while. i reconigsed him, not so for him.
stared. bus drove away, end of story.
more of him? no thanks.

and * did it again
just totally crashed my confidence for *
i now have to stuff my words back to my mouth =(

yck NDP 09

2009-08-02T22:29:00.004+08:00

today i went down to yck to see the march pass for PM lee.
well overall nice job for all the commanders, officers and cadets!
hai yo i missed out the front part .. cause the Lee tua pai was late la .. make me wait half and hour.and chun you and zong you accompany me to wait for Lee tua pai ( no not the PM but its another Lee)
but manage to catch most of it =]
me and qh was commenting on how the PM look and with his whole closet bursting with tee-shirts from this kind of events. and he actually SING the national athem .. really open his mouth and sing lo.. first time i see such a important person sing the national athem.

well after a while we went out to see the marching contingent
i saw lots of old batch mates. its cool seeing them again!
haha the guys in their uniform look so suave annd smart. and oh my gosh
its so weird to hear the sec3s being called mdm. its just so ... different
and the sec 4s ah!
eh my sotong super blur vivian become mdm le leh! along with the other ginas like winny tio
mendi ang pearlyn shi hui kewei and yilin!
lols .. you ppl will always be ginas in my heart la :)

slowy i realise i will never be able to treat them like cadets anymore. ppl who had been my cadets before had slowy become my friends .. yeah from mdm to senior to friends.
what a change. :)

then dinner with ks chun you and qh.@ j8. catch up time with the poly guys. haha no one change a bit. and qh is so da freaked out by the steven lim. lol ... cause he too ah gua la.
i am so sorry .. i am always the spoiler to ask you all go home so early =p
next time when i get better results then we stay out longer keas!

just a dinner

2009-07-31T21:25:00.002+08:00

meet up with the rest today!
for the whole of this week i am so engrossed in thinking abt my lousy results
i can almost taste the fear of retaining looming deep in my heart, if i don't start working hard i will definitely fall behind and my class is already the last class in the whole stream. watching others get good results, hearing the sighs of the teachers and their faces of disappointment, looking back at myself who can't even struggle a borderline pass, i feel nothing but despair and shame.i am shameful about my attitude, my lack of urgency and me letting down others.

but today really brighten up my whole week.
i get to see the familiar faces of my beloved friends! its just a dinner and ice 70cents ice cream. but talking to them and taking goofy pictures is so comforting, hearing their troubles in sch makes me know that i am lucky. makes me want to work harder. thanks!

well i will not give up~

Hohoho

2009-07-26T23:12:00.003+08:00

haha i succumbed to the urge to blog!
i am so happy! cause everyone is looking forward to fri! haha!
i wasn't looking to the previous fri though cause i had PTC aww..
sian only ppl with poor results LIKE ME need to see teacher la
lol and it kind of waste time? cause ms lee didn't say much only say work harder ..
=[

well i look forward to coming fri too!

my tutors

2009-07-24T21:15:00.002+08:00

aww the last tues was a really bad day for me
cause lesson usually starts at 830 or 9 for me .. but every 2 wks i will have 1 econs tutorial in the morning, and i totally push that out of my mind, by the time i check my time table its already 7.15 =.= gosh .. i took a cab down to sch and end up half an hour late for the 1 hour lesson ..zzz
sian la .. i so blurrr la .. and i swear i would rather be late than to take cab in morning again. its dam dam dam ex.. cost me arnd $24 to get to sch .. T.T i am so broke this wk.
and if you think i late for half an hour is terrible .. try picturing the GP tutor coming to class half an hour late? .. he is .. sloppy pig la, somemore this is not his first time, and i heard from friends that it is absolutely normal for him to be late. Plus when he speaks its not like super clear or something .. he have that soft and drowning deep voice and more than many a times.. i accidentally block off his voice from my head la. he likes to speak with many ermmmms hmmmmms okaaaaaaay draging the last syllabus .. if i could cancel all his erms and hmms i can release half an hour early can!
and they say he is a lawyer ?! before he started to teach .. OMG like he is a lawyer? can he speak with conviction and convince the judge with all the ermmmmmmmms and hmmmmms? lol

and the hunky looking eye candy econs teacher is going off to NIE le .. wah lesser motivation to improve my disastrous econs. sian sad lo .. every time he walks into the LT, you can really really feel all the girls eyes are all on him. Yes he is that attractive lo .. and he smile like a sunshine aw now econs lecture will be like gloomy dark day..
sian ah sian!

no life

2009-07-10T20:19:00.003+08:00

well firstly happy birthday sam! yeah this well wish came 11 days late. but still want to say it! love you sam! and your present is still with us.heehee
lots of stuff happened lately ..
we surprised the drenched sam on the guides carnival day. its nice spending time with the 5 even though we were slacking most of the time away.
midyr results out .. shit well didn't do as badly as i speculated. but still .. promos is less than 3 months away. so i really have to work harder and take it seriously

and had an outing with some of my classmates at marina barrage. it was all good fun and its a beautiful place to watch sunset, and there is a super nice water playground there :)

lately i had been a aimless ghost who had lost her soul.
i make no sound decision, no opinions (not even stupid comments inside my head), no aim no goals no drive. nothing. as if i am brain dead hanging there on a life machine which practically is wasting time and resources.
everything lost its appeal?
i think so

good bye good grades!

2009-07-04T00:15:00.002+08:00

i am such a goner!
eh i got no one to blame if i got lousy results huh ?
i just squandered the whole holiday away ... other than maths every single subject i spend less than a half a day preparing for it ..
i only feel the urgency to study the hour before the paper?.. this time round is game over le ..
i guess after 10 yrs of exams i am so sick and tired of it, i so numb about studying, not even the fear of failing could drive me to work..

well i guess there is nothing to celebrate about, since i think i am going to flunk most of the papers..but still went out with qh for lunch @ pepper lunch after the last physics paper. i should have ate ramliy instead!! awwww too bad .. i didn't see the stall =[ and i walked around amk hub and amk central for the whole afternoon. well at least i can walk in peace .. since its end of MYE afterall.
i am so not going to look forward to monday

i will work hard!
i will play harder!!

harry potter's wonderland

2009-06-20T00:19:00.003+08:00

went to the bugis NLB today with my pw mates..
it seriously awed me can .. the reference bks there are like as if cannot be found anywhere on earth .. if we can steal one of the bk huh .. PW confirm a liao .. and the 11th floor of the library is like totally to the max .. its like hogwart's library like that lo .. full of mysterious looking bks and funny looking displays, the pin drop silence in the library is so oppressive that you don't even dare to breath loudly lo.

and i had VEGETARIAN tze char with my pw mates! i nv had tze char with friends before in my life ... haha and this time all vege somemore .. special eh.. but the vege prawn taste exactly like the normal prawn dam amazed la.

and pls pls pls let me have 1 more wk of holiday!
i promise i will work like there is no tmr!

hey we meet again!

2009-06-18T21:30:00.003+08:00

the fivesome gathering

me and qh came a little late to yilin hse ..

finally after don't know how many months the five get to gather again!!

i miss them loads la ... even though i see qh practically almost everyday ..

its nothing much just get together and hang around..

we watch a dvd, material girls .. should have watch other movies la .. since yilin and sam have a myraid of them. their whole collection are like wow .. some pirated dvd galore like that ..

me and qh swam abit .. then yea to shut me up we went to the sauna ..ok i think its a gd place to practice kazhua killing, haha i became the arguably the best kazhua killer!

then we went to the buddy hoagies cafe for dinner! aiya .. its a pity that we missed the timing for student's meal .. it was great catch lo, after that shop for ks and ds present and we went to the library. haha i was debating with them how come aunties like to read that kind of chinese novel, you know the ones with a portrait of a girl in the cover .. its the typical auntie favourites, and i borrowed one, but i was too embaressed to read it on the mrt cause ... its a auntie bk! the 5 is simply just the BEST!

22o6 gathering on tue!

i am so sorry to edna and qh who reminded me of the outing. cause i appeared infront of edna in blouse and skirt (gosh!). and i read edna's post on the day before! so guilty la .. then we went to converse to buy our canvas.. hohoho .. i got my new shoes .. love it ah and we met winny,

and rush to the jimmyz shop to buy clothes to change .. and rush to tuition and saw the cx juliana and vivien near the tuition place and after that rush to buy cake and rush to sentosa.. haha i was chionging for time for the whole day!

we went to clarkE quay, to the pitstop cafe!its small and cosy board games cafe with no one except us .. the lao ban niang see our big group, her face is totally $.$ haha .. and we tabooed our night away! its awesome place to hang out with you ppl!! i miss you guys x]]

and happy birthday DISHENG and KAISHENG!!

class outing

2009-06-10T00:22:00.002+08:00

hehe ..
today very early wake up le lo .. just to meet ms lee for like 20mins?
have to chiong my pw again! i really think the worst subject you can take is PW seriously like i really really don't like it at all =[

then off i go to tuition. and realise that my phone is so dam flat! shit.
so i just rush to plaza sing and i can't find a pay phone anywhere =[[ when i finally found 1 i realise that i couldn't call anyone cause i don't have anyone's no. =[[[ and heng my sis is at home, hurry up call le then meet rest of them in sakae

the class outing was all soo fun! xD other than watching renee caryl and sharon eating the lemon and RAW salmon .. i had some too, i don't think i want to have it again .. =.=
after that was clark quay.. i think its awesome to just sit by the river and just do nothing la ..
we 13 people happily walk into hagen daz then, water was serve to everyone and .. only 2 orders were placed .. haha abit pai seh but who cares .. the ambience in hagen daz is quite cool, i just suddenly think of the 5 of us. i don't know, its just a sudden feeling, something that i really want to share with the 5. somehow it just make me nostalgic, miss the 5 alot.

we just stroll around clark quay and we buy some drinks and sit around near the river, haha played truth or dare, dam funny la .. know lots of stuff abt my classmates ^^
well looking forward to another outing!

色彩斑斓的爱情虽耀眼夺目但不过是昙花一现
素颜的爱不花枝招展却芳流百世

BANG you're dead!

2009-06-06T19:09:00.002+08:00

climb out of my warm bed early in the morning and reported to sch for clay shooting.
i woke up too late for breakfast, so the empty stomach and fatigue plus the awful sun just make me stone through the whole session, annoying qian hui to her toes i guess
the shotgun recoiled alot and its dam difficult to hit the flying target la ..

then i bought subway to amkss while qh make her way there from home. i missed their parade=[ but on time for their farewell party. well HPC, i am so proud of you! congrats for taking over the unit, but you ppl will just be my cute little sec 1s =]]